i am not crying out for help. im just screaming into the void. posting messages is therapeutic idk why

i wish i could afford to adopt another cat. been a while since rocky died & i feel aimless and w/o purpose. he was my only reason for living

the smell in the halls in my building have been getting so bad lately... it is so bad 2day i was lightheaded waiting on the lift W A MASK

my therapist has informed me that actually not everything is my fault and i cannot control the injustices i face!!

my ex sending me weird threatening emails and retracting later. my neighbors slamming shit. weirdos wandering the halls. ptsd times!!

ex totaled his car n his abusive ass had me on it ofc n im dealing w his insrnce calling instead of email even tho im DHH n deadnaming me :)

everything is my fault. i am the source of pain and sorrow in the universe. i should be eliminated for the betterment of humanity.

i want to crawl out of my skin

my boss stopped* calling me she/her by just...not using pronouns for me at all (*we'll see lol)

boss has been so MEAN to me lately and she apologizes but im convinced she will just give up on apologizing like she gave up on my pronouns

forgot how to draw again

using boomer emojis to establish dominance over my coworkers

tired

love how my boss has just been aggressively gossiping about me and shamelessly misgendering me to everyone...

boss's excuse for always misgendering me is that i "use too many pronouns" (he/they) ...so u decided 2 just use smth completely different??!

lol my health rapidly deteriorating throughout this work day is my divine retribution for being such an unlikeable bitch

on top of all my other stresses my boss has been pulling a fucking heel turn on me with wages and scheduling and my gender and boundaries..

i wish my s.o. wasn't so obstinate and moody w me l8ly. ive been supporting her working xtra w her hrs being cut and im so exhausted...

i found a law firm who will take my fucking disability case!!!!!!!!!!!!!

there is no hope