clamo

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im sorry ive been off my meds against my will please dont hate me too much i know ive been horrible the past few days trust me its even worse to be in my head im so sorry i know i alienate friends and strangers alike by being the way that i am cos ive been suicidal since i was 9/10 and my parents didnt let me get therapy even tho i begged for help so i sat with those thoughts for a decade without getting help and ive been in therapy for over a decade now but that shit doesnt like fix you there isnt a handbook for surviving a lifetime of abuse then losing your son cos it feels like i am being flayed alive and i pray no one reading this can relate but i know someone can and i am sorry to you more than anyone else

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clamo 🤒 3 days ago

back on my antidepressants thanks to my counselor. very good thing but very bad side effects from restarting. i feel like a walking ulcer.

clamo 😭 5 days ago

i cant believe im having to fight so hard just to get the meds that keep me alive. why only give me 2 days worth of meds for 2 weeks???

clamo 💀 5 days ago

the world is a vampire

clamo 😭 5 days ago

i had to answer the phone AND answer the door AND i have to leave the house today this is all so much more than my delicate mind can handle

clamo 🌧️ 5 days ago

i can't get over a offhand jab she made the other day when we were arguing. i know deep down she wants me gone.

clamo 🙃 5 days ago

begging for my meds i told nurse i was in withdrawal & sick & having brain zaps and he literally said "that's fine" see why im suicidal?!!!!

clamo 🥺 6 days ago

if gf mab pa-15 has a thousand fans i will be one. if gf mab pa-15 has one fan i am that fan. if gf mab pa-15 has no fans i am dead.

clamo 🧐 6 days ago

pooping with the door open to assert dominance

clamo 🔥 6 days ago

praying for those affected by the fires </3

clamo 🎶 6 days ago

fat pussy like santa

clamo 🙂 7 days ago

it's an insane person thing, you wouldn't get it

clamo 😛 7 days ago

giving the worms in my brain a few more silly pills in exchange for not forcing me to kms as urgently (how does this not Disabled?)

clamo 🌧️ 8 days ago

but naw i was told to put that mentally ill suicidal shit away. shove it in the closet with that faggotry, that sjw bs, that artist shit...

clamo 🌙 8 days ago

if only you knew how my mother reacted when i told her i was suicidal when i was 10... you'd understand my desperate fight to stay visible..

clamo 😭 8 days ago

"you are just begging for attention" y-yes? im scared of killing myself? why is a crazy/suicidal person expected to behave rationally????

clamo 🌧️ 8 days ago

sorry again

clamo 🌧️ 10 days ago

feel like i should be posting an hourly apology on here for being visibly insane and pissing off everyone who sees my posts im so pathetic

clamo 😱 10 days ago

the best part being off my meds (besides the literal OCD suicidal thoughts and being insufferable) are the brain & tongue zaps!!!!

clamo 💀 10 days ago

just learned i've been off my meds that keep me from killing myself lol i hate insurance (yes it messes me up so fast i immediately forget)

clamo 🥰 11 days ago

if anyone tries to 5150 me i will bite, punch, kick, scratch, and spit on the officers who come to get me so they're forced to shoot me dead

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