feeling like a cat.. want attention so bad but when i get i want 2 smack them and walk away

is the word im looking for loathe or abhor and why cant i make it stop

Imagine being creative, driven, optimistic or good-natured in any capacity

When I ruin my day, it's cry in bed and wish something was different... so long as it's not the foreseeable future ruined outside my control

god bro i just wish i could do more but thats all ill ever do... wish.

me??? reaching out to secure a connection, trying to keep it alive? who am i??

Devastating being unable to know or care about anything

thinking how far I've come and I feel so proud. although I'm unsure if I'm hungry for more

Pushing my limits (in a good way, to have a good time. I hope to remember and continue this <3)

Often being the only person to wear heels in my department feels so alienating everyone knows it's me from miles away broooo

I don't just have classmates... I have a friend

I think that if anyone read my work they'd be so confused how I got here

Let the worst parts of myself be seen without forethought and see if that's enough

meals today include cheese its and candy bruhhhh

Anyone else weirdly sentimental about material items people give you because it's like tangible evidence of your connection and of that time

I really say, "this is my new interest I will turn this into a term paper"

me noticing little things I do that differ and wondering if it's a stylistic preference or if I'm strange

have at least 4 lip products in my backpack but only one pencil :^) that's how a girlboss slays at uni

its anxiety i feel like my chest is going to explode

is that feeling in my chest shame or anxiety and where is it directed?