i just want to be alone where the only person who can hurt me and hate me is myself.

i cant leave bcos we have a very sensitive cat and it would ruin his life and every other cat i have loved is dead or was taken from me...

she makes me feel horrible. she makes me feel burdensome. she makes me feel worthless. she makes me feel unloveable.

she comes home and i try to be helpful and kind but there's always something to bark at me for I Genuinely Want To Die

i desperately want to die

no one is ever on my side or looking out for me. everyone has an axe to grind with me. everyone fucking hates me. i have to kms

it sounds like when i complain about this stuff im like bitching about my mom but nope!!! it is my partner treating me like a stupid child:)

aint no WAY she woke me up from a dead sleep to ask me smth and got annoyed when i didn't have an answer ready and chewed me out for it

day and a half since my mid-sleep larynx spasm and my voice has only gotten worse.... am i...is my voice fucked forever...?

woke up in the middle of the night unable to breathe... I think my larynx spasmed... not the first time this happened...

only bad days. stuck in place. helpless fragile piece of shit. waste of space. a burden. there is no place for me in this world.

good thing i have nothing to my name and don't have to whip in any inheritance docs lmao

fucking bitching at me all the time and then telling me im being irritable literally leave me alone!!!!!!

the average wait time for disability when i applied is less than a year and here i am on year 3...

anxiety eating me up my hearing is in a month im so scared im so scared what if i get denied???

everyone wants to date a depressed goth trans dude but no one wanna smell his tobacco

oh now shes shaming me for smoking lmao

YOU MAKE ME SICK. YOU MAKE ME POUR MY INSIDES OUT ONTO THE BRICKS.

i miss being an artist and also not being obsessed w su***dal ideation :(

ill prob just wait until my trial and then if i lose ill end it all