cramping

i just spoiled myself for jjk and my blorbo WJAHT NOW????????????????

i think its gonna be real special if i get it done. a little pal from me,, I think it would be cool,,,

so i think i know what i'm going to do on val day. first sun status in a while because im excited

i HAVE to stop asking and fucking myself over

i wish the things that happens in my ,,,freaky dreams were real

ive decided to stop trying. it’s probably for the best

i wish i knew what everyone thought of me and how to act so i can make socially correct decisions

spiraling because i dont know what to say and i dont want to make him any more mad a tme i cant do this anymore i cant interact with anyone

I DID IT AGAIN. I CAN'T STOP APOLOGIZING. EVERYONE MUST THINK I'M A GUILT TRIPPER. HE'S MAD AT ME. IT'S OVER.

screwed it up again :(,,, all my friends must hate me for making so many mistakes

talked to counselor, felt a little better. it’s still sinking in though

negating depression with suggestive songs

i look to the phone and there’s nobody i can vent to

nothing to do online but i'm still here like a pest

laying on my back in bed. the last hours were a blur. did i sleep? did i not? 我的心好像碎了。

it's sinking in. a little. unsure if i want to sleep tonight or not. god(s) i wish the last years of my life were fake. im a cis girl right

it hurts knowing what they’re probably up to. i can guess that they’ve been calling

for what its worth, i like you

i wish school would start sooner. it’s lonely in the box